Guarding yourself

I recently had a conversation with a friend who I reconnected with after a decade. We were friends during our early teenage years but somewhere along the way, as it often happens, we lost touch. We then had a fully-fledged conversation on WhatsApp which provides a certain amount of dropped inhibitions and she told me about how she’s gone through a lot of changes. One of which was that she had become far more guarded.

Why does a person become guarded?

It is the reaction to betrayal and disappointment and an attempt to protect oneself against similar experiences. This, of course, makes it harder for anyone to get close to her, but it also makes it harder for her to get hurt. In many ways, becoming ‘guarded’ works as it is meant to. This however also means that people who she would be able to connect well with will take the easier option of opting out rather than take the time and effort to penetrate those walls.

Us humans enjoy taking lessons from experiences, and you, of course, won’t find a teacher in England to deny the importance of this philosophy. At times though, we learn the wrong lessons from the right experiences and the wrong lessons get internalised because they work. They work to a fault. Still, you figure it’s better than the alternative, nothingness is better than pain.

Is it?

The well-known phrase of ‘it’s better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all’ stands true. Experiences are our teachers, some of them are complete assholes and so you choose a passive-aggressive conclusion, knowing it’s not the right one. If you just barricade yourself and ultimately shoot new experiences in the leg, you won’t learn anything at all. Your last lesson will have been a problematic one, one that led to the end of any new teachings.

So what do those walls really stand for?  Cynicism. Suspicion of one’s intentions. Don’t get me wrong, the road that led you to this destination must have been a painful one and I’ve been there. And while you can entertain the thought, heck you can even implement it for a little while, it holds no future, at least not a future that is dipped in happiness. In time, you’ll have to lower that guard, take that risk and be open to the uncertainty.

Why?

Retrospection will be a bitch because you’ll come face to face with regrets of failing to have done so. Don’t let those regrets build because mistakes of omission weigh far heavier than a step taken that was simply the wrong one. Don’t allow one or a small number of experiences to ruin new ones, ones with potential. I mean when we’re grey and old, all we’ll be left with are stories and the lessons learned; what the hell are you going to ramble about when you’re sitting in a care home, having never been through your share?

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  1. Great post! I’m currently working on a post about making mistakes, so it’s nice to see your perspective on how we guard ourselves after negative experiences. 🙂

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  2. I know how it is that the wall is created, and also how you feel once the wall blocks the people who should not be blocked. I have first hand experience at this and can tell you as you wonderfully summed up that it does make it harder for someone to get close, and also the chances of getting hurt is low too. I can only say that I can relate, I cannot decide if it is good or not.

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    1. Yeah, I think to be completely direct, it’s not a good way of resolving or even avoiding conflict, not a healthy one. There are different ways of processing and learning to overcome these without shutting yourself off completely. That said, I think most of us do kind of stay into that category anyway but it is up to us to realise what we’re doing and pull us back out. I’m glad you could relate though! Hopefully you picked up some advice too. Thank you for your lovely comment 🙂

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